Listening to: Memorecks - Bruce Wayne
Reading: The Ruins
Watching: The Dark Knight
Playing: Watch Dogs
Drinking: ginger ale
I've come to the realization that I don't really enjoy drawing anymore.
It's not fun for me anymore; quite the opposite, it's kind of a chore.
I had hit some rough patches in my life for a while where I absolutely needed to pimp my skills out to put food on the table.
I know some people would be super grateful to have a skill like this to fall back on, and don't get me wrong, I was/am too.
But... now I have a steady job (yay!) and no need to force myself to do commissions anymore. I don't need the extra cash.
It was getting to a point where I felt hostage to certain pieces and I was miserable. The whole ordeal seriously put me off drawing.
Now that I do have this job, attempting to draw for myself still isn't the same as it once was.
I have an image in my head I want to get out, but I'm rushing through it- taking shortcuts, and getting increasingly frustrated all the way through.
It's exhausting, and no longer a stress relief or a hobby. So, probably don't expect any new drawings from me for a while.
Digital design on the other hand is still something I love doing, so my gallery might take a major shift in that direction and I might share some stuff I had worked on a while ago.
Thanks for reading!